Sunday, 11 June 2017


So I'm expecting my third little lady, I'm well on my way to my very own princess tribe!
Although my girls aren't your stereotypical girls there isn't a sickeningly pink bedroom, princesses, glitter and fairy wings galore. You'll find my girls in the middle of the mud pie with the grubbiest of hands of the bunch, dancing away to the fart/burping music app in their room, opting for a ball over a skipping rope.
If your expecting your third,fourth,fifth... child of the same sex to your eldest two,three or four some of these phrases won't come as a surprise to you. To be totally honest I was kind of expecting some of them but will I ever stop hearing it?

Do you know what your having?
A little girl
*que the sympathetic tone of voice* Oh another one
This one has to be one that gets me the most, that sympathetic tone really rlys me

Will you keep trying until you get a boy?
No, I'll keep trying because I want more children, if we have a boy bonus if we have a girl bonus! 

Another girl? Ahh are you happy?
Well of course I am, Why wouldn't I be?

Aw poor Andy.
This is one you just expect to hear and I have been heard to say it myself  but
Why poor Andy? He now has 5 women in his life that love him more than he'll ever know, that'll always be there rooting for him whatever he shall choose to do, 3 will always see him as their king, 1 he'll always be her little solider and 1 he'll always be the better half of.

I know no one would have meant anything by these comments and maybe I started to take them to heart a little more than I should have but after hearing them whenever someone asked me if I knew what I was having yet, I started dreading people asking me and felt really sad for my little growing lady and protectively cupped my bump as if to protect her from hearing what was being said and gave her a little reassuring rub.

Thursday, 8 June 2017


33 weeks and 3 days

24th July.

Little lady

According to my Ovia app baby is the size of a ferret, can now detect light and her pupils now dilate and constrict.

Backache seems to be making an appearance recently but I'm certainly not helping matters after having a few cashiers tell me I should be taking it easy while serving me with all my bizarre buys like a kitchen bin that I've filled with all my other purchases, I've decided it is time I left those sort of buys for when Andy's with me.

I seem to be needing an afternoon nap now if I don't I find my eyes getting really heavy around 5/6ish but I'm still sleeping well through the night when I don't have a niggling tooth keeping me from fully settling.

ICE just as I did with the girls, I'm the first in the que for a slush puppy when the ice cream man comes round and always get a medium for the price of a small (clever man) I rather enjoy a penguin bar or four too.

I'm feeling rather pregnant, this is the first pregnancy I've felt quite heavy bump wise when doing day to day activities and find myself having to take a little breather on the school runs, babies movements feel quite strong and very hard to miss this pregnancy too, the girls were always obvious movers but this bubba can be known to take my breath away or make me jolt randomly.

Seeing our little lady for the last time before we meet her and starting to discuss my delivery options with my midwife.

I know I said it before but I'm really hoping my love for blogging returns now I'm actually on maternity leave and have a lot more time on my hands, I really wanted to document this pregnant here on my blog but there's been quite a bit going on recently that it really was the last thing on my mind.

Tuesday, 21 March 2017



                                                                            HOW FAR ALONG?
22 weeks.

24th July.

Little lady

According to my Ovia app baby is now the size of a American guinea pig, I'm not quite sure if theres a size difference to your general guinea pig? Everything looks perfect and as it should be at our 20 week scan the other week, she was still exploring her facial features holding onto and touching her nose, at our early sexing scan she held onto her ears the whole time we were there (3 hours).

I've gone from 54.3kg to 57.4kg so not a huge amount of weight gain but they are keeping an eye on my weight due to my BMI.

I seem to be getting a lot of round ligament pain with this pregnancy, most mornings it can be quite uncomfortable to roll over and can wake me in the mornings.

Sleep varies for me at the moment some mornings I can happily be awake before my alarm (I always wait for my alarm tho of course) Others I wake feeling like I've barely slept.

Still nothing I can totally put down to a craving but I am LOVING cupcakes with fresh butter icing! 

Feeling like I can finally get excited and start preparing for our little pea and like its actually real, We are having a bubba join us and it's not just something I'm hoping for when people pass me at work with their bumps and posh buggies because I have one too.

Seeing our little lady again and getting all her bits washed ready for her arrival.

*As you can tell I've totally failed at taking up blogging again which I'm pretty gutted about but maybe I can get fully stuck in once my Maternity leave starts. 

Tuesday, 24 January 2017


Boy am I pleased to see you!
This week I finally welcomed the second trimester with open arms, I'm now 14 weeks!!
I'm aware google and my bounty pack book say the second trimester starts at week 13 but my apps seem to say today is my first day of being part of the second trimester club, Being my 3rd you'd think I'd know this by now.
 I'm so eagerly waiting to feel Nugget have a little wiggle after the week we had last week,
Just as I was warned I've experienced some more bleeding but this time after a day of the room spinning and being sick every time I dared leave my bed, que the frantic worry!
Why am I being sick all of a sudden? Why am I bleeding after being unwell? Sickness bug? Is something wrong with baby? 
As much as I was warned I could possibly bleed again, it didn't make it any easier to relax when it happened. I didn't bleed with Doo's until I was quite far along and could feel her move for some reassurance and went to EPU each time after ringing my midwife but everything's changed since then and you now have to be referred to see them, so this time I rang for advice and was told if I wanted to be seen I can go up and listen to Nuggets heartbeat (which I'm also eagerly waiting to hear) I could but would need my GP to refer me before heading up there. So I decided to wait it out with it not being heavy and nothing like the first bleed I had and just take it easy as advised.

14 weeks. 

24th July.

To early to tell.

According to my Ovia app baby is now the size of a troll doll and his/her kidneys are now producing urine and is nearly doubling in weight each week at this point.

I don't own scales and won't know of any weight changes until my upcoming antenatal appointment.

Other than a more obvious and permanent round tum, some back ache my pregnancy is still pretty much symptomless.

For the past two mornings a few hours before my alarms due to go off I've been unsettled for various reasons (Nuggets morning feed time maybe?) other than that I'm doing okay for sleep.

I've got quite the sweet tooth this time around and enjoy a good chewy sweet, everywhere you read says your having a girl but I don't remember eating many sweets with the girls. Fruit juices are a big hit too it was all coca cola with the girls and after but this time I'm really not keen and prefer juice or milkshakes.

Actually feeling pregnant now, still anxious but like I can start getting excited and relax a little now.

My first antenatal appt in 2 weeks and our early sexing scan in 3 weeks. 

Friday, 20 January 2017


Back in early December I not only found out that I'd secured a second contract with Marks and Spencer after completing my 3 month contract with Princes Trust, I also found out one of Daisie's wishes was to become true.
She's finally going to be a BIG sister not only is she going to be a big sister her little brother or sister is due to join us 9 days after her birthday!! 
My due date by dates would have been her birthday but our first scan switched things up a little, I am however getting some dejavu with this pregnancy my due date by scan dates is the same due date I was given with Doo's those many years ago.
As much as we weren't trying to prevent a pregnancy it came as quite a shock after coming back off my pill and my period disappearing we didn't get our hopes up as at the beginning of last year the same thing happened with every pregnancy symptom going and we were very hopeful but after a scan it turned out to be hormone related.
This time my period disappeared but along with no pregnancy symptoms, BUT 4 tests and another 2 each day following finding out and testing my tap water to be sure it wasn't a dodgy batch of tests it's safe to say this little one was on board, that didn't stop me testing to double check the morning of my first midwife appointment tho!
I've been to Manchester and back with my brother, been doing big equipment and stock moves at work and attended friends get togethers while enjoying the very very rare jager bomb all while this little one was on board and I had no clue.

Other than sleeping for the 4 of us which I can do when I'm not growing a human, randomly having an emotional day which all makes sense now, my pregnancy has been pretty symptomless, We had quite a scare new years day but after an emergency scan it came to light I have a subchronic bleed beside my placenta/pregnancy and it's likely I may experience some more bleeding through out my pregnancy.  

Friday, 18 November 2016



Party themes are so much fun to have but can also be very pricey, for items your going to be using for a matter of hours before they are binned or shoved in the junk drawer because they cost that much you tuck them away in hope you may end up using them again one day. 
This year I went for an alternative to the branded themed partyware available, Daisie's party theme was My little pony and her table cover alone cost £2.79 (which is pretty good but it took a lot of hunting down as most were being sold for £4+) Now maybe I'm just a major tight arse but I find those prices a little steep for something that will have all sorts spilt on it until it's eventually rolled up and binned once the parties over. 

So this year instead of going for the themed party plates, cups, decorations, party bags etc 
I went for the colour scheme of each pony on the table cover, We had a ceiling of crepe paper running from each side of rainbow dash hair colours, a tassel garland of Twilight sparkle colours and plates in the colour scheme of Fluttershy.
Thankfully a few of the children picked up on the look I was going for and it saved me a good few pennies which I was able to put towards another present for Daisie.

You can do similar with most loved programmes, I've used Avengers Assemble as an example above using the colours from the Hulk, Captain America and Iron man.
Coloured partyware can be found pretty much anywhere from Asda,Tesco and eBay for as little as 99p.

Tuesday, 20 September 2016


If you've followed my blog for awhile you'd have noticed my little series of Anxiety & Me posts, In my last update I mentioned having a 6 week course of CBT therapy and how well things had turned out despite my doubts at the beginning.
During that time one of my aims was to get myself a job or at least apply for a few without having a total meltdown, well since then I have applied for many jobs confidently sadly nothing came of the majority of them and the 3 interviews I had didn't mount to anything either.
After a little while the job centre told me about a work programme with M&S through the princes trust.
I went along to the first information day not showing any major enthusiasm not knowing the experience would be absolutely life changing for me, With all the information in hand I went along to the second information day and a taster day at one of my local M&S stores were I met an amazing group of people. We had a run down of what the next 4 weeks would involve and done some group exercises something which a few months earlier would have sent me into a complete meltdown.
Then came day 3 where each of us had to wait for the phone call to see if we were successful with getting onto the programme I was one of the 18 lucky people to have made it onto the programme  and had secured a place in my first choice of store to complete it in.
My time at M&S during my work experience has been an amazing journey, I've made some amazing friends, I've had hands on experience with the general day to day of retail, Things my heart was always in and already doing but my mind was so scared of doing.
Finally being given the chance from a company that saw my struggles and saw something in me I didn't entirely believe I had myself.
(I covered my background of anxiety in my small interview before leaving the taster day for them to narrow down the 30 to 18)
4 weeks of great work experience and an emotional celebration day with everyone involved. I returned back to the store in which I completed my work experience in. Sat in Enrica the store managers office along with Nina who has been my work bestie (who was also part of the programme) and two of our amazing coaches Angie and Jon. Where both me and Nina got the news they had decided to keep us on!!!

Your now reading the blog of a newly working mummy who can be found in the GM section of Marks & Spencer.